There’s a sinkhole in my chest

June 28, 2015
David Broadwater

David Broadwater


Salty waves burn my cheeks – boiled by the seething rage in my gut.

I was 16 years old when four black girls were blown to bits in their Birmingham church. On the day I became a citizen at 21, Martin Luther King Jr. was assassinated. Today, at 68, I see nine more massacred in their Charleston church.

Although I’m horrified by such barbaric acts, I’m more dejected and enraged by the frantic scramble of white politicians, pundits and media blowhards trying to rationalize this latest massacre as anything other than a KKK-style racist terror attack.

But, what burns the deepest and hottest is my utter disdain for my white brothers and sisters who adamantly and ardently refuse to acknowledge and rectify the chronic, systemic and corrosive racism that permeates our society.

The day-to-day, year-in-year-out degradation and exclusion meted out upon non-whites in our country in the employment, scholastic, criminal-justice, housing and health-care spheres inflict a level of pain and suffering I, as a white man, have never had to endure.

I’d like us to stop doing this before I die. Let’s really live up to our creed of “liberty and justice for all.” Please.

David Broadwater is an activist who has lived in Atascadero for 43 years.



  1. slophocles says:

    Like every other race in this world, African Americans are manipulative, self-serving, and playing the angles and they need to wake up. Shootings and racist flags and rampant use of the n-word are all very provocative and distracting but are nothing compared to the outlooks and practices of the powerful, white-male-run structures in our society, toying with you at this moment, even in beautiful, happy places like SLO County.

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  2. slophocles says:

    How about we just stop name-calling, period. Weren’t we all supposed to grow out of that shit by the sixth grade and leave it on the playground?

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  3. 65buick says:

    Cherry-pickin’ media

    If you look around, most people don’t give a flying hoot about someone’s race and furthermore are friends with people from different backgrounds.

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  4. Downtown Bob says:

    David, I wonder what your perspective is on the killings that take place every singe weekend in this country? Weirdly, they are mostly in liberal controlled cities with very tight restrictions on gun control, and are mostly carried out by “people of color” and sadly most victims are as well. Here is just one city, Chicago, run by Rahm Emmanual and a bunch of other corrupt politicians…link to follow. 15 killed last week alone!

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  5. achillesheal says:

    There is a sinkhole in thousands of young black men’s chests each year due to bullets put their by other young, fatherless black men.

    Don’t invite society due to 1 incident in a country of 300M. Intelligent people look to what is occurring daily, patterns repeating over and over to conclude that there are systemic problems.

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    • Black_Copter_Pilot says:

      It’s not racist to point out the obvious truth that you have written.

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  6. pcag says:

    I could not agree with you more on the impressions our kids and ourselves are receiving every day. We are desensitizing our brains. Why do companies advertise on TV? Impressions work- negative and positive. Horse crap lyrics in many songs, tv shows that glorify stupidity, ( Tosh O, jackass etc) raunchy shows all around. We expect our kids to not emulate some of this stuff. Guess again. My wife and I raised 5 kids and watching the junk on tv now and all the crime shows like CSi etc. I bet the average tv person witnesses 300 murders/assaults a year. We are still working our way out of the influence of all the above. Anyway thanks for your great articulation of what many of us feel today. Rome went down hard and it started with the decadent behavior of people who influence others. Think our society is immune to failing, guess again. When we become desensitized to certain behaviors being wrong we fail to care when they occur. We don’t voice our concerns, political leaders don’t react. It snowballs to the point there is no conscience, no feelings to say “no that’s not right”. At least not on a grand enough scale. Enter the scourge to terrorize those who are passive and unable to recognize the danger they are in before it is too late. It’s making its way to our shores, through our borders and into our society. We are too passive, too political, too naive to see what threats are ahead of us. When we are not outraged at what is taking place in Middle East, we have been desensitized. Bob, you called it first. Hope your wrong, doubt you are.

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    • markslo70 says:

      you forgot to mention cable news — don’t underestimate the lengths they go to to promote prejudice and divisiveness in order to both drive ratings higher and perpetuate the status quo. Its the black man, the mexican, the native, or the white man — not the people who are using corrupt backdoor means to really rob us blind.

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  7. Rambunctious says:

    Yeah here we go again, white people are evil and everyone else is as pure as the wind driven snow. Give me a break. Did Mr. Broadwater write a sappy opinion when 9 troops were killed at fort Hood by a racist terrorist?
    How about when 5 black youths dam near beat a white man to death last year while shouting racial epithets? (the DA’s office is still trying to decide if that incident was a hate crime)
    How about when two cops were shot by a black man in NY while they were eating lunch? Did that cause Mr. Broadwater to weep?
    Racist and evil haters come in all colors. The constant accusations of racism and white supremacy from people that seem to hate white skin is beginning to close in on insulting. Whether they hate their own white skin or mine. Knock it off.

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  8. mbbizpro says:

    There will always be racism, sexism, and any number of other isms. Look around the world. In the Middle East, non-believers of Allah are routinely killed. Women don’t achieve the status of animals. Europe has any number of challenges caused by the ethnic mix of Non-Europeans that have migrated there causing high crime rates due to a lack of desire to assimilate. In Africa, non-Muslims are tortured and killed on a routine basis. Let’s examine China and their Human Rights record. Do not condemn Americans due to the actions of a small number of criminals. The days of labeling groups in America needs to end. White Anglo Saxon Protestants were not responsible for that terrible multiple homicide. One person was. There is no longer systematic discrimination in the United States, just people that have an agenda trying to make us believe that there is, and those people come from all socio-economic and national origins.

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    • Slowerfaster says:

      One murderous hater did not develop his sick and twisted rage all by himself.

      Your arguments are all red herrings. America has a history of racial oppression, subjugation, slavery, and white-power dominance ….ALL done by White Anglo Saxon bigots, for the most part.

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      • mbbizpro says:

        Oh please. When is anyone responsible for their own actions? Nobody pulled the trigger but him. In addition, let’s say that I accept your conspiracy theory that he had other support, why should the rest of us be indicted. Your comment, ‘White Anglo Saxon bigots” spell out who the real racists are. That language and the mindset that would allow one to say it tells us everything that we need to know.

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      • Messkit says:

        You seemed to have failed American History 101.

        Just about ALL oppression, subjugation, slavery, and white power dominance, came from the LIBERAL LEFT of the WASP bigots.

        I suppose you already know, that the very first slave owner in America….was a black guy.

        So, in light of real facts, you need to turn your learned hatred toward the leftists/liberals/progressives/socialists/communists for the festering hate of others in America.

        Yep, it’s all YOUR fault :)

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        • zaphod says:

          you seem to invent history The United Nations won the war the nazis lost. the UN declaration 1942,during the war chartered later in 45. russia did the heavy lifting early on shameful to cross them the way we did, almost every country involved is more socially progressive than we with Norway at the top free university health care on and on only america had to have a war with itself over slavery and soon there after got into this war business of armaments planned obsolescence and debt. you have only yourself and you neighbors to blame we are a representative democracy terrified of saying no to the wishes of the wealthiest group. I am embarrassed and have been since sept 11 1973 Chile was kissingered, democracy assassinated,Nixon. your labels are as tired as the GOP is mean stingy and stupid.

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          • euroamerican says:

            zaphod, Sorry to tell you this, but NOTHING in life is free….just ask the taxpayers.

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            • zaphod says:

              No worries;free thought smile freely sun on your cheek prospects for a better life after this better and brighter as time goes along with all of us

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          • mbbizpro says:

            Have you even considered the atrocities committed by the Russian Soldiers against the German people during WW2? Do you really want to tout European financial policy? Greece? Spain? These countries are teetering on the verge of collapse due to unaffordable government programs. You are anti debt, yet, you expect more benefits paid for healthcare by the government? This President has amassed debt at an unsustainable pace. Our debt for the entire existence of our nation is approximated $18 Billion. Obama has increased it by nearly $8 billion, making him responsible for about an 80% increase vs all of the debt ever taken by the country prior to his election.

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            • zaphod says:

              Have you even considered the atrocities committed by the Russian Soldiers against the German people during WW2
              HUH? what? you portray the blockheads who invaded Russia as victims?? really.Germany may have been maltreated by occupation troops, not that big a deal considering.
              Debt for anything except war and destruction is fine by me, debt is how money is created.

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              • Moderator says:

                Russian, German, Federal reserve, Bengazi and so on

                Argue about WWII and unrelated issues elsewhere.

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                • mbbizpro says:

                  It seems to me the issue is mistreatment of people, both according to the author of the article and the responses here. I am not sure why the treatment of people historically is not on point.

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                • zaphod says:

                  on this we agree

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                • Moderator says:

                  mbbizpro: The issue is mistreatment of people now, not 70 years ago on a different continent.
                  Why stop there, people were being mistreated 500 years ago and so on, there is no end, around and around we go.

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